Blog of MattCheetham

“So are you coming on holiday with us?”
I roll back, dangling my head off the end of my bed see my mothers inquisitive face
“I dont know, i was thinking i might save up and go America instead”
Thats was the moment the cup shattered violently accross the floor.

Just kidding, for the first time ever my mum is kind of ok with an idea im having. I was thinking about how im going to university (hopefully) in around 7 months and im not going to have enough money to do anything but live for 3 years so i wanted to make something of this summer.

If i can pull this off, i know its going to cost me a hell of a lot of money but maybe if i go visit people who ive known online for long enough, i might be able to borrow a couch to sleep on here and there and id get to travel around a bit.

Its by no means a solid plan and id need to draw up costs and such which is likely to tear the thought to shreds but maybe it could work, just maybe.

Who wants to put me up for a few nights?

I gaze out the window, I check my phone, I send a pointless text, I refresh tweetie to see no new tweets, I just for the life of me, CANNOT concentrate.

I have an Economics exam tommorow and as dramatic as it sounds, my future weighs on these exams. This isnt the first time this has happened though, year after year i get to within days of my exams and feel the pressure. I sit down to revise and within minutes im distracted. I feel like everything i read goes in one ear and out the other and i sort of believe people when they say “if you dont already know it, its too late!”

I even came up with a website idea earlier whilest reading a paragraph about economies of scale, how did that happen?

Well, ill leave you to do your thing, im going to smash my head into a plasterboard wall or something, maybe it will help…

Its time.

Every so often i feel the need to take a break from the Internet. Now judge that as you wish but this time its a little more. I need to take a break from a lot more than just the internet, i need a break from life.

I kind of dont want to go into details but im going to be pretty anti-social for the next 7 days of my life, im turning off notifications, closing email and uploading some preset booths probably. Im gonna take some time to myself, ive run myself into the ground trying to keep up with work and social life as pathetic as it sounds, i just need some time to myself. Ive been ill for a good 7 days now and it happens everytime i get too stressed.

I hope you all understand, including my real life friends and family, i hope its ok with you all, ill be back to full time everything pretty soon. I just need time to get on top of everything and just.. actually to just do nothing in the evenings for a while.

Love you all

Peace out.

Matt. x